the madness i make
noughts and exes

you and I we’re the same dear, both alike in our pain here
as to who takes the blame we fight
lightning strikes the same place here, tired of living the same shit
though the cover looks great, it’s not.

find me love

this is falling apart we seem to tear at the heart here
why is something I’d die for killing me
keep your chin up it’s ok, people say just be happy
how can love find a way when I’m way off

find me love, hide me love

and the call of my name in the darkness where I hide away
cries aloud begs me near, lulling me from the madness I make
Where the warmth of my woes keeps me company as they corrode
I’m, in time, torn asunder, left to gather myself and repose
All the lines that I’ve flavoured with my fiction have me now entwined
And the depths that I sank to, didn’t seem very deep at the time
Now my lack becomes clearer in the light of the love that draws near
I am my own deceiver, sick of all of the shit that I’m in

save me love

and the call of my name in the darkness where I hide away
cries aloud begs me near, lulling me from the madness I make

I need to stop feeling sorry for myself and being depressed, because I'm ready to start living again. I'm freaking turning 21. I should be having the time of my life. Not worrying about things beyond my control, things that I shouldn't have to deal with until I'm much older, if ever.

I hope I never have to deal with this ever again.

But for now, I'm ready to start living my life again.

Stronger than ever. And ever so grateful to my friends for picking me up :)

"everyone, at some point in their lives, wakes up in the middle of the night with the feeling that they are all alone in the world, and that nobody loves them now and that nobody will ever love them, and that they will never have a decent night’s sleep again and will spend their lives wandering blearily around a loveless landscape, hoping desperately that their circumstances will improve, but suspecting, in their heart of hearts, that they will remain unloved forever."

- lemony snicket

i’m falling into a perfect apathy, your words and memory are floating away, almost as though i never cared for you



almost

Vivitar UWS x Konica Pan 100