They say 21 is supposed to be the pinnacle of your life- it's when life begins, supposedly. We'll see how that goes.
I don't have the best of demeanors. And so I tend to hang on to the bad, overlook all the good, pick on the smallest things that make me unhappy and let these things ruin perfectly good days, perfectly good situations because of my inability to let go. In short, I am a bit of a tantrum throwing, attention seeking brat. But 2011 has been one of the worst years of my life, and it has truly been a life changing 6 months. However, it has also been the best. I've lost a lot, but things happen, and you grow.
You can't fix someone else's mistakes. It doesn't matter how hard you try. And nobody deserves to beat themselves up over it, or allow anyone to talk them down because of it.
When you wake up one day and you find that bridges you didn't realise you burnt have already crumbled, mistakes you don't even realise you made have been made, and the one thing that grounded you has fallen apart, you tend to want to fall apart. But how long before you pick yourself up again? I'm not sure I have. But I sure as hell am trying.
I just hope that when times get rough, I don't fall back into whining and complaining and not actually doing anything to help myself but overlook all of that to find the lesson and learn from it. It may sound trite and cliche, but I really don't want to look back on
my life 10 years from now, and realise that I've learnt nothing and that I'm exactly the same person.So for starters, here's a happy place
to document the highs, let go of frustration, remember to be thankful and
to document my gratitude. What's done is done- right now all I want to do is to
constantly remember the good, learn from the bad, and to just be content.
So here's to living life, loving life, making full use of every
opportunity I have and appreciating all the lessons along the way.
S x
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