itsladylazarus

"He still loves you. He asks about you all the time."
"You know that time you said- that if he came back for you would probably not be able to stop yourself from taking him back... can you don't? I'm not like judging or anything, but as your friend I mean like... can you just please don't?"
"Are you okay with it now? I mean I know you're fine and everything but are you like, okay okay?"
"You have a wall. It's... it took me quite a while to break past that wall. To really get to you."
"You know it's really hard to find someone who loves you so much he will do anything, absolutely anything, for you right?"
"He lied to you for 6 solid months. Can you please remember that."
"You've shut down. I don't think you'll be okay until you meet someone who makes you want to fall in love again. Then you'll be very not-okay. But after that you'll be okay."

My friends want nothing but the best for me, but what exactly is the best for me? I am so sick of talking about it and I feel guilty making people listen to me talk about it. So I stop. Shutting it out isn't the problem. The problem is when I am eventually forced to face it. But even after 6 months, I still can't deal.