I unintentionally offend people with the things I say sometimes. So I become a bit paranoid about what I say and how people react to the things I say. I've learnt to keep quiet about a lot of things and keep the unhappiness inside because it offended people to hear it. I thought not letting people hear what they didn't want to hear was protecting them. I've taken so many steps back that at the end of the day I sit here, and realise that it has completely backfired because now I'm nothing but a common pushover.
I don't know what happened to me, because once upon a time I was the girl who didn't give a shit about what anyone thought of me. Actually, I do know what happened to me. I realised that being the girl who didn't give a damn was hurting people around me and pushing them to their limits to keep me safe. So I overcompensate and now I'm the girl who shuts up for no reason other than that people don't want to listen.
So easily pushed over, and so quckly silent just because I am told to do so.
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