letter graveyard

I am human, and I hurt. Anger does a pretty good job at covering it up, but it doesn't mean it's not there.

I am not openly emotional. That does not mean that I don't have a heart.

My patience has a limit. Just because I am pushing to keep it beneath that level doesn't mean that it is limitless.

I am not a patient person. I hate waiting in line, I hate waiting for people, I hate having to ask for the same thing a zillion times over. And yet I tolerate you.

I do not deserve this. Open your eyes and maybe then you'll realise- I have been nothing but nice to you. I don't have to be, but I am. Most girls in my position are not, but I am. I have been listening and being sympathetic and understanding when all I want to do is to punch you in the face and tell you to fuck off. I am trying very hard to be mature, but push me and I will very happily unleash the teenage girl in me. The teenage girl you no longer are but still behave like.

You are not my friend and I owe you nothing. I may trash talk you to other people but ultimately I still treat you with nothing but kindness and respect. I do not need to ask you for your approval or tolerance- you have no right. And yet I ask, I request that you leave me alone. I do not demand. I do it because I respect you as a human being.

I do it for the sole reason that it makes the people I love happy. I do it because I don't want the people I love to be angry for a stupid reason like you.

Think about it, and maybe you'll learn not to blame me and punish me for something I did not do.