I really need to get my act together and stop dicking around with my life before I lose every single good thing that has happened to me this year. Everything just landed in front of my face and working out without any of my input. And I am somewhat terrified that once I start actively doing things I will wind up messing something up because I have a tendency for doing things like that. 2008 was a shitty year and 2009 has to be a good year, if only to make up for that. It has to be.
On a separate note though, I fucking hate being thrown ultimatums it SUCKS why can't people just fucking compromise? Especially when it's their own flipping indecision in the first place that put me in this state. Just cos I have one thing does not mean I completely cannot have another. If life works the way things are now and we're okay why change things why make me choose?! Fucking retarded. Asadafdfksdafjkldsfklsf.
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