Sunday, July 14, 2013

meh.

Life can be so very misleading sometimes.... and I need to figure out what I want to do, and do it quick, before everything drowns me. 

Some days it just feels like I'm going through the motions, and it feels like I'm not really living, at all. 

I'm happy on a really basic level- freelance work is pretty steady, I start a new full time job in a couple of weeks. Things with B are finally back on track after weeks of fighting (I hope), I'm financially doing okay, I'm spending time with my friends and having a social life. I'm saving money and planning ahead and hopefully moving out in a couple of months. But I can't help but feel like I'm stuck in this plateau of a life and I don't quite know how to get out because, in the first place, I don't know what wrong and what's causing this dissatisfaction. 

Can't help but feel like so much is a facade and there is nothing I want more than to be genuine about my life. 

So, the real question is, WHAT AM I EVEN UNHAPPY ABOUT???

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