please don't give up on me

Torn between wanting to dissolve in a puddle of tears and wanting to stare this hard shit straight in the eye and say that I am stronger than this.

And I choose the latter.

I will face up to my flaws and fears and I will be a better person.

One way or another. Fucking hard or not. I will do this for myself.

Photo diary: Taiwan 2013

This space has lain dormant for quite a while, and I'm not sure why I haven't been here. This space reminds me of all that is happy and good and I should be more grateful for what I have.

And by that entire longwinded paragraph, I actually just meant to say: I WILL BLOG MORE. 

To kick things off: photo diary from Taiwan.

meh.

Life can be so very misleading sometimes.... and I need to figure out what I want to do, and do it quick, before everything drowns me. 

Some days it just feels like I'm going through the motions, and it feels like I'm not really living, at all. 

I'm happy on a really basic level- freelance work is pretty steady, I start a new full time job in a couple of weeks. Things with B are finally back on track after weeks of fighting (I hope), I'm financially doing okay, I'm spending time with my friends and having a social life. I'm saving money and planning ahead and hopefully moving out in a couple of months. But I can't help but feel like I'm stuck in this plateau of a life and I don't quite know how to get out because, in the first place, I don't know what wrong and what's causing this dissatisfaction. 

Can't help but feel like so much is a facade and there is nothing I want more than to be genuine about my life. 

So, the real question is, WHAT AM I EVEN UNHAPPY ABOUT???